LET ME OPEN WITH...

Live Love Laugh... Okay in these United States we need belonging. I wonder what we base that need on. Do we create a need from desire or what the average person in our neighborhood has? By the way I love red freeze pops. So back to the nag, I feel I base my want of things on what is best for me and my family. I have never been someone that cares about peoples thoughts of me. I enjoy my family and friends, also Me. Love means my children, and family. Laugh means my Husband and kids. Live means enjoying it all.
     Being thin might be the one thing I talk most about, but lets face it I enjoy my family most. I would love to be thin because I feel my family might enjoy me more. I feel I might be more relaxed allowing me to laugh more at the world not me being Big.
     People focus on Fat. They are intrigued  at the fat person because that person is a "In your face reminder at to what they can be"
     Through the years I have seen myself go up and down in weight. all in all I note pictures by the weight I was in the picture. Not my age, I never remember the age I am in  the pic just the weight. I can tell you my weight in everyone, No Joke.
     I also know I have kept myself from doing things because of my weight. like being active, when looking back I recall my weight being at those time like 120lbs, I was Fat in my mind. I look back and say how in the hell can I think that, How? I WISH I was a 120lbs. How can anyone think I am fat at 120lbs I DID.
     My point being is weight is more then a just fat it is a mental overpower that embraces our mind. It controls us. It directs our role we play. It also overcomes our success in the weight loss we truly desire. It can be deadly.
To be continued...

   

New Things!

Part of this weight loss program is keeping busy. I have had no problem having something to do these days. With my children and grand kids I have a week full of events.
Today I had fun with Glady, as her light holder. The wind was strong hard and unforgiving at times. The excellent work done by Glady and DeShea amazed me. Dedication to the photo, working in the wind, sand, and environment (aka bugs glass and baby diapers) yet making it all look easy. Nice Job!
I can't wait to have Glady shoot me.

Laugh Out Loud!

Just the other day I meet Jessie for dinner. So nice, Jessie is a funny sister. We were talking and I am not sure what about, but we started to laugh, and I mean we were laughing hard. I have not laughed that hard in a long time.
I think the last time was with Glady, we were making a CD for Jaymes & Michelle's wedding reception. There again I do not remember what made us crack up so hard, yet we laughed that whole night.
I love laughing, I really do, for some reason a good hard laugh can physically feel good. One time long long ago Patty and I were coming from the supermarket... JJ's in North Las Vegas, anyhow we started to laugh about something so stupid but we could not stop.
 So, remembering a good laugh just makes me want to relax and enjoy life again and Laugh.
Before marriage D and I would go on many dates one time we started driving because we could not figure where to go. So he took me to this motel like 20 miles out side of Vegas. I am not sure how it happen but in the mist of things D fell off the bed hit his ribs (he still has a scar) I think we were laughing at how much noise the bed made. We just could not stop laughing, he was bleeding and in pain but he was 26 and in excellent shape too. Just Laughing Out Loud!
Let me know of a time that made you Laugh So Hard....

Running NOT

I have been bad, no exercise this last three days. Busy yes. Very busy. I feel bad that I was unable to run or walk. I also feel guilty. I was wondering why the guilt? Maybe I have guilt because somewhere inside I know I could have had some kind of work out or even watched my diet. They say if you can't work out be very careful with what you eat this will keep your self equal. Time to step up to the plate and just get it done already. Now I will run around the block. at least a 1/4 of a mile will help. and it might help more than physical but in my minds eye of how I see myself too.