LET ME OPEN WITH...

Live Love Laugh... Okay in these United States we need belonging. I wonder what we base that need on. Do we create a need from desire or what the average person in our neighborhood has? By the way I love red freeze pops. So back to the nag, I feel I base my want of things on what is best for me and my family. I have never been someone that cares about peoples thoughts of me. I enjoy my family and friends, also Me. Love means my children, and family. Laugh means my Husband and kids. Live means enjoying it all.
     Being thin might be the one thing I talk most about, but lets face it I enjoy my family most. I would love to be thin because I feel my family might enjoy me more. I feel I might be more relaxed allowing me to laugh more at the world not me being Big.
     People focus on Fat. They are intrigued  at the fat person because that person is a "In your face reminder at to what they can be"
     Through the years I have seen myself go up and down in weight. all in all I note pictures by the weight I was in the picture. Not my age, I never remember the age I am in  the pic just the weight. I can tell you my weight in everyone, No Joke.
     I also know I have kept myself from doing things because of my weight. like being active, when looking back I recall my weight being at those time like 120lbs, I was Fat in my mind. I look back and say how in the hell can I think that, How? I WISH I was a 120lbs. How can anyone think I am fat at 120lbs I DID.
     My point being is weight is more then a just fat it is a mental overpower that embraces our mind. It controls us. It directs our role we play. It also overcomes our success in the weight loss we truly desire. It can be deadly.
To be continued...